Friday, December 07, 2007

flickr account. testing

http://www.flickr.com/photos/deannaggg/show/

Blasted!

Why can I not figure out the flicker picassa stuff? I have cute photos mostly of the cute kids I have created. SO how do I share them?

Grrr..


And as for life, I have to go the the post office.
Who wants to come?

My kids are barfing today, and Grace has major tummy aches. We had to cancel our home school outing. Bummer. but we are sitting by the fire, baking sweets (sugar free of course) and chilling.

Now I need to go ship off my Alibris book I have sold.

I am off. (anyone who wants to tutor me in setting up the blasted picassa thing, I appreciate it!

Wednesday, December 05, 2007

A new stage in life.


I have suffered long enough, and I have officially found peace & Happiness.

How you ask? Some miracle drug? Some Lottery won? Some Rich Dead Uncle has bestowed upon me the wealth untold?

NOPE

I have found peace in existing simply by Following the Words of Christ. I have found that when I ASK it is GIVEN, and when I obey Happiness follows. Simple huh?

Does this mean I do not have days when I have more poopy diapers than one cares to change? nope.
Does this mean I relish in the thought of cooking one more meal for picky eaters. Nope.

It simply means when I wake in the morning I can smile inside and know that I am making a difference!

I love my kids, I love my husband, I love my cow (yes I DID say Cow, jersey to be exact) I Love my goats, I love my chickens. I love my farm-house, I love my self. And I owe it all to my Savior and Redeemer

Much Gratitude to Him who created me (and you for that matter)
Dee

Saturday, July 28, 2007

The hosue is packed, but the comptuer is still out!

Silly me huh? nearly everything in the house is gone, except my desk & computer, the internet will turned off on the 1st, and I will try to figure out my next move.

I think I may have found a wi-fi connection, but we will not know until we go out and hook up the phone line & the computer.

So lets hold our breath
(well not for 3 days)

and we shall see!

PS Thanks Jessica for my good girl package, and thanks to whomever sent the ohter ones (I packed the name list and oops didnt remember who it was!)

I LOVE GOOD MAIL!

and I will get some ready just as soon as I get my house un-packed!
HA!HA
Dee

Monday, July 23, 2007

NO INTERNET!?

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We are moving to a new wonderful! WONDFERUL home in the country, However it will not have....
gasp


INTERNET!

how do you go without internet?

how do you pay bills?

How do you talk with friends?

How do you...shop!?!

I am in shock right now, we just ordered the phone services, and they are not planning any install of DSL anytime soon, so it will be an adventure to find service, however,
we will save money
however I may go crazy
however I will have SO much more time on my hands
however i research and study on the internet
however..............

so I have one week left. then...then....then.... I will fall off the face of the earth, only to resurface when I figure out a solution for my 'other addiction'
(the first being sugar remember?)

p.s. isn't the house cozy & sweet?

Saturday, July 14, 2007

Addictions

This writing has to be cathartic for me, I am sorry i do not have more uplifting subjects to refer to at this pont, but right now I am barely holding on to sanity.

5 years ago, I slowly lost the use of my hands, I had a baby (my 4th) and when it was time to open a baby food jar, i could not do it. I simply could not grasp the jar and turn, I had no strength left in my hands, and I hurt All the time. I was always in pain, my head, my back, my eyes, my hands. My family has a history of arthritis, so i just chocked it up to this, and went to my Dr. he perscribed me this: Celebrex and here is what I read about it:
may cause sudden daeath.
hmmm.... pain in my hands, or death....hmmm...pain in my back....or death.....hmmmm tough one, i think i choose pain in my hands!

Phew.

I made the choice NOT to take the meds I was perscribed. I was going to school (UVSC) and signed up for a beginning yoga class (gasp) I was BY FAR the fattest and oldest person in the class...so what did I do? ;)
I invited my mom to join the class! (now at least i was not the oldest anymore)

So i meet my ideal amazing Yogini. Denise Preston. She taught me much more than just downward-facing-dog.
She introduced me to Dennis Remington. Dr. Remington ; http://www.freedommedcenter.com/doctors.shtml

It changed everything, my outlook on life, the way I ate and especially my personality, I went from raving, angry lunatic, and it changed me intoa calm, happy patient mother. I am talking 180 turnaround.

I spent 4 years eating like a 'rabbit' and I was a happy, normal, wonderful patient mommy, I homeschooled my kids, with great patience and love, i learned new things, i studied my scriptures and taught my children great skills.... crocheting, baking, sewing, painting, I was a candidate for "Mother of the Year 2005"

Then pregnancy #5 hits me. and it was the first time in 4 years I ate an orange. I had not been able to eat fruit, not even a grape, they would make me violenty ill.

Baby #5 would make it so I could eat fruit. and fruit I ate, in all forms, as much as I could get my hands on.

However as I ate the fruit, and had the first sweetness in my mouth, it became overwhelming how I wanted sugar, as I had not eaten ANYTHING with sugar. I ate nearly only vegetables and legumes, and occasionally bread.

I felt like an addict. all I could do was think of sugar, obsess over it, long for it, wish and imagine eating it.

eventually it got the best of me and I ate some sugar on a cruise my husband and I took. I was so sick from gastric issues for a month, that i did not eat any more sugar for a long long while.
Fast forward to this month, life has gottent he best of me,a nd I have eaten sugar on a nearly daily basis for the past 2 weeks. AND NOW, well you have read the posts about being mentally compromised, and I know KNOW that it is becuase I am highly allergic to sugar, and I can not even have a substitute, so let me introduce myself

Hi, My name is Crazy lady...and I am ..... addicted to sugar, in all forms, natural, fruit, honey, raw, brown, refined....in its many forms. I know it will keill me eventaully, and so I will once again go on a cleanse and know that when I indeed kick the habit, I will never again be able to eat sweets, in any form.
Thanks for reading about my ramblings.....

D.

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

Welcome!

Myspace LayoutsMyspace CodesMyspace Layouts

I am learning all sorts of new skills! Look at me!
Now off to figure out the music!....hmm.....

Thanks Carrot! You always make me smile!

Monday, July 09, 2007

Medications

What do you think about anti depressants and or anti-anxiety meds?

I have taken them in the past, and I have read up on them since then, I am terrified to take them. My non-LDS Dr. suggested I simply take a 4 oz. glass of red wine each night. She says this will help with the anxiety and stress. It will also help with sleepless nights.

So which’s worse? The meds that may cause; Headaches, dizziness, heart palpitations, liver failure, pain in the extremities, shortness of breath, lack of sexual drive, and unexpected murderous rage if stopped abruptly.

Hmmmm......

What are the side effects of 4 oz of Red wine each day?

(I am obviously playing devils advocate here, I have not purchased the red wine.... yet ;)

Thanks ladies

I appreciate the 'pick-me-up'

I really really do.

Why are we racked with such guilt? Why do I feel so guilty for letting my kids go for a while? Its n ot like its forever!

I cant take the meds cuase I spent 3 years addicted, and it took me DANG hard work to gte off, but when I did get off I was SO MUCH happier. I am trying to do those things that made me happy then again. (But moving back to Alaska is not an option)

I am doing ttapp
I am cleaning out my house
I am taking time for me

But what I really want to do is;
Binge on sugar!
It has been 4 years since I have consumed sugar, you would think that I would have a handle on this addiction by now.
Nope it still has me!

Sunday, July 08, 2007

Are you cheesy?

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Apparently I am ;)

I have just sent off my 3 middle rugrats to spend time with thier Autni A. in Iowa.
This aunt, who is actually my cousin, is the only person on this earth that will drop anything and everything, take a week off of work and come to my rescue. sounds dramatic does it?

Not so.
I refuse to take anti-psychotic meds but I am losing my grip. I can not stand my life right now, and I am an angry person becuase of it. My spouse, is normally very wonderful, but he is struggling with me struggling.

He just says ''pray harder and things will get better.'' & I ''must not be trying hard enough '' and things of this nature.

this is the second month in a row where I am down to $2.52 in my account, and 2 weeks until pay day. Lifeis rough, and I am wearing out. DH ha sbeen in Ak. for 5 weeks now and will be home around the 16th. I just hope I can make it until then.

man I am a dwoner today, go spend your time soemwheres else, since I am just sad....and pathetic....and...I will just end there for now.

Friday, July 06, 2007

Learning curve

Man, I do NOT know what I am diong in this blogging world.

I dont know how to imbed music, or cool graphics, or even where to find those cool graphics, and I am really not so sure I should spend the time to figure it out. I am already WAY behind in my list of to-do's.

mow the yard
clean out the closets
run 3 miles
balance the checkbook
write a campaign letter
squish some baby bums
finish the Mt. St. Laundry Marathon

Write thank you letters to my amazing family and friends who have done so much for me

Draw up house plans.

phew I am
getting

sleepy

I think I will take a nap.

Sunday, July 01, 2007

Anyone else?

I swear if miss Carrot jello were in my neighborhood I would have to wear depends!
She is so hillarious, I look forward to nothing else, (well besides bedtime when I get to go back to sleep) she is one funny momma!

is any one else amused?

Also wanted you to know I have reached the pinnacle of my success, I am now on myspace.
myspace/deannaggg

come visit, but warn me ahead of time, cuase I am set to private

(so that all those men will stop harrassing me and offereing to kidnap me away and woo me away from my sweet hunky husband!)

Friday, June 29, 2007

Carrot Jello!

I can not find you, when I clicked on my favorites (you) the link is broken, :(

and I found this http://oinkledoinkle.com/ old blog via google search, (which looks allot like Marvel my jr. High boyfriend)

why have you forsaken me? where are you and how do I find you again!?

sob sob

Thursday, June 28, 2007

Photos of my cuties!

Sticky hot vs. dry hot

Spending a week in the dry heat at Lake Powell. The temps were in the 99-105 range, and while we were on an air conditioned houseboat, it was still pretty tolerable.
Now we are in 85% humidity and only 80 degress outside, and it is pretty sticky!

How do you get over a hump? is it midlife crisis, or is it depression (ppd?) or possibly something else. I struggling immensley, just to get out of bed every morning, I use all my energies on trying to be charitable, I know that if I lose myself in service then I will be pulledo ut of it. Instead I am so tired of trying to please everyone else. I just want to be taken care of. I want to have MY needs be the first priority of SOMEONE, my I am sounding like a pouty, pathetic, grumpy butt head.
just ignore me!

I am off to scrub more floors now.....

trying to keep my head above water.

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

A long trip, on the road....

My children and i (all 5 of them, one of me, I am SO outnumbered!)

went on a road trip! now we have to spend the next 48 hours cleaning the car out, and doing the laundry to get cuaght up, photos and detaisl tommorro!

I am sure you are just giddy with anticipation!

dee, (the super, exhuasted, sick of fast food, ready for a vacation from my vacation,mom)

Thursday, May 31, 2007

Calorie counter delima

I have meant to lose the baby fat, he is nearly 9 months old, and my waist has not budged. not an inch. at least not in the right direction, so I consult with my dearest, most loyal friend, who has in the past 6 months lost 4 pant sizes, and she looks fantabulous!

So here is where she recomends I visit daily to see how many calories I have burned,and how many to intake:
www.calorie-counter.com

man cannot live on 1200 calories alone!

HELP

what a challenge, to be nursing a baby, and cut the intake to 1450 a day. I am going to have to be obsessed and have 'constant-vigilance'

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

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How to release a cemented butt from the couch (or computer chair)




MY sweet espouse, has offered me many suggestions, as I am having a major lack of enthusiasm for living in this dingy duplelx. Rather than gettig out and enjoying the beautiful surroundings, I sit in the musty, stinky living room, and wish I was somewhere else, somewhere like this.....(OK not somewhere LIKE this, but here..)

Even though we moved from Alaska in April of 2006 I still have not changed the time stamp on my blog account.

This way I am seemingly an early riser, getting oh-so-much accomplished in a day!
(pat on back)

Getting to know carrotjello has been the ultimate hi-light (how do you spell that version of high light hi lite hy-lite??) of my year!

Saturday, May 19, 2007

A year has passed.....Moving to Missouri

In April of 2006 we moved from Homer. It was a sad time; we had enjoyed our surroundings IMMENSELY!
The Lord has prompted us to move south, we had no idea at the time how far we would be going (had we known we probably would have stayed put!)

We have grown and learned from this challenge, yet I would appreciate learning different things, like how to milk a cow, rather than how to block the smell and noise of having 20-year-old neighbors....

Sigh....

However we are where we are supposed to be, (I think) and we are still a family....

Wes is anxious to find work that will keep him close to home, (to keep an eye on these beautiful, talented daughters of ours)

And I am anxious to get out of a rental.

Zeke is 8 months old, and growing. He is a "tank" as we lovingly call him. He just started learning how to crawl, and he is actually more irritable now than he was immoblie??/ weird huh?


I will try to get some new pictures of him posted.

Please forgive my typing, my keyboard is on its last leg and the letter keys do not alwyas respond in the order I press them.... It is time for a new one (hint hint wes)